So Long Harry Truman
I was thinking about the explosion of cancer cases, and the fact that the future is painted bleak in that there is projected to be more cases in coming years.
I’ve lost most of my loved ones, animals and humans, to one form of cancer or another, so not only do I hate it with a passion, but I’ve tried to learn as much as a non-oncologist can.
But, it strikes me that there is not just a cancer of the body affecting us..but there are cancers of society, cancer of the soul, the heart, the spirit, and more.
One cancer of the mind is Alzheimers…any loved one who has an Alzheimer’s victim as a close family member will tell you that it is as though they are taken away from you as far as the person they were, long before their body is taken away. Thus, as Alzheimers is increasing in numbers of cases, and there is no cure, Alzheimers can be a cancer of the mind, but not the brain.
There is a creeping cancer of our society as well. The DHS, NSA, has acted against their own citizenry, treating them as foreign, running over them, disregarding their rights of privacy, much as cancer cells will attack their own body’s cells, disregarding their rights, treating them as “the other” or an alien.
Just as cancer cells lose “contact inhibition”, that ability to stop expanding when they come in contact with their neighbor, and thus you see a tumor grow, with haphazard piling of cells, so also is the DHS and NSA as they have lost any respect for our own rights of our property…they use our computers, phones, as sources of snooping data on us…in short, a cancerous way to act.
And, multinational companies owe no loyalty to the country of origin, don’t give a damn about the citizens of that country, their health, their rights, and I suggest at that point, these corporations are acting in a “cancerous” manner as well. They too have no respect for our rights of privacy, or any other of our rights. They have disjointed themselves from the body of people we call a country. Like cancer cells in a madlong quest for more territory, killing and devouring the normal cells in their way, such is the modus operandi of these corporations.
And, as the economy tanks, people lose homes, jobs, loved ones to this disease or that, or to suicide, or to being locked up for something like smoking marijuana…there is a cancer of the spirit that develops. It is the pessimism, the angst, the depression, the hopelessness.
Just like a physical cancer, things like self loathing, feelings of being a failure, hopelessness, will steal the joy from you like a thief in the night. Slowly, from within, that sparkling glimmer that was YOU…begins to dull, begins to quit spinning evenly and with power…it falters…it wobbles…and before long…it falls.
Emotional, physical, psychological cancers, can kill you just as much as a physical cancer can. There are no surgeries for this cancer, no radiation therapy, no chemotherapy…because once one dies inside…the death of the body is only a formality.
I hear from people all the time who are losing jobs, losing homes, losing marriages, …and what is the common word here….yes, “Losing” and when you lose long enough and hard enough, you begin to identify yourself as a loser, and when you are a loser…suicide seems like only a small step to some.
I firmly believe that suicide is the terminal fruit of the tree of hopelessness.
Once you are in pain…serious pain, whether it be physical or emotional…and every day seems worse than the one before…suicide appears to many to be the only door left through which an escape can be made.
As I see my Mom’s mind fading like a flower pressed between pages of a journal from long ago…I wrap my arms around her and kiss her forehead and say it will be alright…but, inside, I feel that is a lie…that it will NOT be alright, at least, on this side of the grave.
When I see stories of animal abuse, I hug our cats and though they don’t understand my words, I try to convince myself that “it will be alright” and that the monsters will quit hurting animals, both intentionally, and in the case of zoos, perhaps unintentionally.
I want to hug the world of innocents who are hurt and say, “It will be alright”…but Truth is a stubborn thing…and inside I know, it will NOT be alright.
The question of “When will things get better”…seems to have no quick or facile answer. Sure, daily I do those things I can, but the march toward inhumanity seems to never stop.
The army is announcing plans to phase IN robots in the military and of course, the unspoken corollary, is phase out the humans.
No, the cancer that sets one cell against its neighbor, is in many ways the same process as the DHS telling us “See something say something…” meaning, rat your neighbor out..there may be a few shekels, perhaps 20 pieces of silver in it for you..
The response to seeing the government going after one group of people should not be “at least its not me they are after”…because, there are still the lingering, the haunting refrains of the words of Martin Niemöller who, writing from Nazi Germany said :
First they came for the Socialists, and I did not speak out— Because I was not a Socialist.
Then they came for the Trade Unionists, and I did not speak out— Because I was not a Trade Unionist.
Then they came for the Jews, and I did not speak out— Because I was not a Jew.
Then they came for me—and there was no one left to speak for me.”
The words are referring to the German intellectuals who were only involved in self interest, and would have said…let them go after them..as long as they leave me alone.
Truth be told…in a cancerous government, no one is “left alone”…all are affected in one way or another.
When the light at the end of the tunnel is another train coming to run over you again… it makes the bones ache…it wearies the soul.
There is no group, no individual that one could call a “terrorist” that can do me more harm than my own government…because without privacy, without freedom, without liberty…a bomb holds no fright
I said the other day that my father, a WW II Veteran who served proudly, is someone I miss with all my heart every day…but I am glad he did not live to see what the country he was ready to die for, has become. I did not say this symbolically or to make a point…it is a simple and true statement of how I sincerely feel.
And, what legacy am I leaving my son, my granddaughters. I have failed them…we have all failed them.
The spark of liberty that was handed down like the dying embers of the last fire built by our forefathers…that we dare not let die out because we might not be able to start the fire again…is dying…right before our eyes.
We didn’t start the fire, but we at least had the duty not to let it burn out on our watch…we failed. The future will NOT be better for our children than it was for us. The Earth will NOT be in a better condition than when we were born.
Look at the pea soup the Chinese laughingly call “air” …it’s so think and full of pollutants that they have to put up a huge digital screen showing the sunset because the citizens can’t see it through the haze.
So, when you lose your freedoms, your privacy, your rights, all you have left is…the blues.